VY

I must confess, I love this girl by the name of VY. What I know is that I have cheated on her, and she feels that there is no turning back. I feel lousy, frustarted. I feel useless with myself. No matter how much I try, I have lost her. The hurt is killing me. The days seems to be very short, a daily sleep of 4-5 hours is killing me surely and slowly. My mind is always spinning around. My work is getting from bad to worse. And I promise not to call her. This is taking every single drop of energy from me, not to call her! Any advice world?